19th April 2015

The past month has been one of development.  Having graduated from full time education for good and entering the world of grown-up work I have found a lack of focus and learning.  Yes, I learn lots whilst I work and I tell you now it is all extremely interesting and I think I honestly have the perfect job for me BUT I miss the focussed learning schedule I have been used to for the past 18 years. 

Last year I attempted (and pretty much failed) to learn Russian - I know a few basic phrases (and a song) which are always quite useful to impress people but I would really love to speak another language fluently.  In my job I work with people from around the globe and thought it would be useful to learn one of their languages.  I started with French and Spanish (both of which I studied a bit in school) and found that two languages at once was a bit confusing.  I have therefore decided to concentrate on French (the language I already have a GCSE in).

I have lots of goals which I would like to reach while learning this language:

• Remind myself of basic phrases for my soon-approaching trip to Paris.
• Re-learn everything from GCSE French and bring myself back to my standard of understanding as then. 
• Find some local classes or distance learning course which will allow me to complete an A-level in French (why not!).
• Spend more time with French people (and in France) to build my conversation skills until hopefully one day (a long time in the future) I may become at least vaguely fluent. 

There are many other aspects of my life which I am trying to develop, many of which I have mentioned previously.  I truly do believe that developing yourself is one of this life's greatest gifts and it is something to cherish and make the most of.

8th March 2015

In the past month or so I have spoken to so many beautiful people and I really am starting to understand what true beauty is.  Now, I have never been the most superficial person but yes, I am prone to bouts of vanity - especially in my past.  The past few weeks have been one of personal and spiritual exploration and although I wouldn't call it the start of my journey (that started when my soul took its place in this body) I would say that I have passed a milestone - one of acceptance and understanding of what I truly want from this life.

I feel more fulfilled than ever before and this is due to a number of things including taking more time to reflect (helped very much so by the current fast) and mainly the interaction with some beautiful people.  I have never in my life walked in to the house of someone that I have never met and felt so at home.  Each and every person greeted me with warmth and compassion radiating from inside.  I found that each person I met had something special and unique about them - each had a kindness and a pureness that radiated outwards.  This beauty was felt through every word they spoke but I am also pretty sure it made them "glow".  Glow is the only word I can use as it is something indescribable but I truly felt that their beautiful hearts really did make them more aesthetically beautiful to me.

I am learning to grow, to be kinder, to think better of people and I have felt the difference since taking the time to reflect.  The fast has so far helped me focus my energy, to consider everybody's points of view and to be selfless. 

12th February 2015

Hello. Happy New Year. Greetings.

It has been a long time since I have written on this blog - in fact, I'd almost forgotten about it.  I have been yearning for an outlet to write and this could again be the perfect place to do so. Seeing as it has been about 7 months since I last wrote, many things have changed in my personal life, work life and the world around me.

I have moved away from my University city now and I am working as a fully fledged rocket scientist (I have a keyring to prove it so it must be true).  I often wake up forgetting how amazing my job is only to come home from work (tired yes) but overwhelmed by how perfect for me my daily routine is.

There are so many small stories which I wish to tell that have happened in the time since I have posted but maybe I will need to save them for another time. 

This week has been quite an active and thought provoking one.  I have taken it upon myself to expand my knowledge in a spiritual and personal level.  It has been coming for a long time but something just clicked and I took the first active step.  It is very personal to me and until I understand more, I will keep things fairly private, sharing with those that I trust.

I have also been active in the sense of going out and doing lots.  I have met with friends, played netball and even gone skiing!  It has been years since I went skiing and this was to my advantage. The "experts" went straight down the slope, the "newbies" had an instructor to themselves and that left me... the awkward person who had been skiing before but needed a gentle reminder.  I ended up getting my own personal instructor, Derek, and I ended up learning some simple techniques I had never realised before.

To sum it all up, moving back has been a transition - I miss the city and those whom I love and care for up there however it is worth it to be back with my family and doing the job I've always set out to do.